Until the last resilient hope
Is frozen deep inside my bones
And this broken fate has claimed me
And my memories for its own
Your name is pounding through my veins
Can't you hear how it is sung?
And I can taste you in my mouth
Before the words escape my lungs
And I'll whisper only once...

wala yan, kumakanta lang... wow, i'm actually listening to dbc again. and it's been a loooooong time. 2 years ago ko yata favorite to. i need new music. uhaw na tenga ko sa bagong magndang tugtugin. uhaw na ko makaranas ng "musical high", yun yung tawag ko sa feeling kapag kinikilabutan ako habang nakikinig ng live performance.

anyway, hindi naman yata yan ang gusto ko isulat.
actually wala akong particular na gustong isulat.

kung ano lang pumapasok sa utak ko ita-type ko.

my blog turns 5 two days from now (torotot!!!!). it's been half a decade. wow. ang bilis. mas matanda pa 'to kesa sa mga inaanak ko. naaalala ko yung unang installment ko ng blog na to kulay black. tapos parang cosmos, meron pang aurora borealis. pero binura ko! haha. keso de bola kase yung mga nakasulat. nakakahiya!!!
haha.

uy "currents" na ang tumutugtog. peyborit!

The air is visible around you, rising up and off your lips in slow currents
And i watch as your face is framed in its slow currents
Drifting curls a trailing path
A long drag becomes a dress of blue and ash

If it is born in flames then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can
And if its gotta end then let it end in flames
Let it burn all the way down

oha! memorize ko pa.

back to writing typing. may cable tv na kami! sa wakas, after 12 looong years. matagal nang nagpe-petition ang mga homeowners dito pero inipit ata "dr3am" yung cable kaya hindi nakapasok ang d@sca cable. lame, hindi naman lahat kami dito afford na gumastos para dun sa satellite dish at load para lang makapanood ng non-local channels.

90+ pala ang available channels. nakakaulol. sobra dami. yung cable namin sa laguna dati 40 lang. napupuyat tuloy ako.

she said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
and you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure
days like that should last and last and last

"dusk and summer" yan, bridge. gustong gusto ko i-gitara. madali kase. next song, "heaven here".

ngayon, totally broke ako. walang mooolah. ibinili ko kase si mama ng celfone, pati sarili ko ibinili ko na rin. parehong kakarag-karag na kase yung mga telepono namin kaya kelangan palitan. yung akin nawawalan pa ng isang buton.

magno-nokia na ulit ako after akong pagserbisyohan nitong motorola ng tatlong taon.

kelangan ko maghigpit ulit ng sinturon. bawas bawas muna ng paglabas. ng pagbyahe. medyo nag-overspending ako last month. wag dapat ganun. hindi ko na dapat masyado sinasabayan yung lifestyle nung mga kaibigan kong medyo maluwag ngayon. baka magsisi ako. baka yung pinagiipunan kong bilhin sa december hindi ko mabili.

ayan "a mark, a mission, a brand, a scar" na yung tumutugtog na album. tapusin ko na to dito. adios.